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-Marie-

Think about how different the world would be today if there wasn't any love or compassion? But also think about how the world would change if we each tried our ab-so-lute hardest each and every day to reach out and help someone we don't know. Someone that we know needs our help and our love.

Love is the BEST thing in the world! And it's the most important thing. Do you have priorities to work out? -Start with loving everybody you know and putting them and their feelings before your own. Nervous about making friends at a new school or church? -Be caring, friendly, and anything else YOU would want in a friend and you won't have any problems. Just love them! JUST LOVE THEM. It's sooo simple, yet so troublesome for a lot of people. I really don't get it. Not even a  LITTLE bit.

You want to be happy and live a fulfilling life? Then stop telling lies and cheating your friends. Stop talking behind their backs. Stop finding the worst things in them and pointing out their imperfections. Offer a hug instead of an attitude. Give that stranger you pass by in the store a smile instead of a glare. Treat people like you want to be treated and THEN you'll be headed in the right direction.

DON'T make this difficult. Please don't. It's quite easy and simple.

It's only hard if you make it hard.

I'm sitting here pondering about who my real friends are. Yeah, there are a lot of people who care about me, but that's not all it takes to be a friend. Yeah, there's a lot of people I know of and talk to sometimes, but they aren't real friends of mine. Yeah, I know I've at least been able to hang out with some people this summer, but that doesn't mean they really know me well.

I long for the friend that knows a lot about me instead of just a few  unimportant things. I long for the friend that I know will think of me just as much as I think of them. A friend that will call me often just to talk and see how I'm doing. Someone who will call and ask to hangout even if we both know there's not much we could really do.

I'm SICK of all the FAKE friendships I have! Some of my "friends" couldn't tell you even 5 things about me I'm sure. I have "friends" who I've never spoken a word to on the phone (I take partial credit for that.) Ugh. I'm just sick of it.

Do you really care about me? Will it ever bother you if I'm not doin so great?! I mean, would you take the time to ask me if I need a hug or someone to talk to?  --what's the point. I already know the answer. . .

Hmm. . . maybe all this is MYfault. Let's face it, how often do I call people to hang out or talk to? Hardly ever. I don't always put others and their feelings before mine. Look at this post for example! -it's all about me!  I chose to ramble on about my hurt feelings rather than using this time to do something nice for someone else. I expect much more than I give. I definitely need to work on that. Wow.

I'm whole-heartedly sorry to anyone I haven't noticed or loved enough. I apologize for waiting to get a "hello" or a hug from you, rather than being the one to go do that to you.  I've just been really hypocritical. . . sorry for that, too. 

Will things get better? . . . I'm not so sure. But I'd like to think they will.

SNOWBALL  --by Shel Silverstein

I made myself a snowball

As perfect as could be.

I thought I'd keep it as a pet

And let it sleep with me.

I made it some pajamas

And a pillow for its head.

Then last night it ran away,

But first --it wet the bed.